So sad :(

I have been torn up inside ever since I heard about the terrible tragedy on Friday. All those sweet innocent children, and teachers who tried to save and protect them. I literally was just sick to my stomach thinking about it, and have been avoiding the computer as much as possible because it is everywhere. 

As a parent of young children I cannot imagine what could be the thought process of going to an elementary school with that much anger. All I can think was that he was a coward and figured they wouldn't be able to fight back.

I am getting more and more scared to one day put my children in school. Although currently even going to the mall is an unnerving thought as there was a shooting in the mall about an hour from our house. How can I protect my children? How do you come to terms with so many innocent lives being taken in such a horrific manner? I am at a loss and grasping for some sort of understanding. 

The only comfort I can find is that they are safe with our Heavenly Father. I pray for comfort and strength for the families of the victims. I pray that we will always remember the heroic teachers who did everything they could to protect the children in their care. I pray that as a nation we will find some understanding and a way to heal, and that we can figure out how to stop these terrible acts against one another.

Messy

I love my little boy!

The picture above of Matthew is a good representation of what I feel my house looks like right now. I just don't have the motivation to do anything about it.

Below is a picture of Emma Lee abusing our Christmas tree, the bottom strands of lights are all crazy now, oh well I guess it is to be expected with small children. I do stop her from playing with them because I know they are dangerous and have lead ect... but I thought I would get a picture or 2 first :)

On a completely unrelated note I was reading a friends blog, she has ads that are between her posts. I have always known that she gets money when people click on the ads, well it just hit me that I should click on the ads and that simple click will give her some money, however little it may be, it all adds up right?

Life

Life has a way of throwing curve balls just when you think you have a plan that will work. I have been working so hard at establishing a daycare here in Forest Grove and it just has not worked, we are struggling and if we stuck it out it may eventually pay off, but we can't afford the interim anymore. This realization hit me a couple weeks ago and I was not sure what I could do about it, because every alternative I came up with involved me working outside of the home and putting the kids in daycare.

Well then last week I got a random job offer from someone who had found my profile on Linked In, she was recruiting me to be a center director for a corporate childcare center. This was a part of Knowledge Learning Corporation who I had worked for in the past (Kindercare). It would have been a long commute, working in a childcare center, and not something I really want to do. At the same time it was a job, and it was not entry level which was a selling point. 

But then I also found out there was an opening at some apartments to be the apartment managers for a 50 unit complex in Banks (about 7 miles from where we are now). This was amazing, I would be able to stay with the kids, rent is paid and not taxed and there are a few other stipends, plus bonuses if I choose to clean empty apartments ect. The only downside is that it would require moving into a two bedroom apartment, switching wards, and not being able to care for the kids we watch now (who we love, they are great!). However the blessings and stability are something I couldn't imagine passing up, we were referred to the position by a manager we know from another complex and we interviewed today and were told we have the position! (pending drug, credit, and background checks which shouldn't be an issue).

What a relief and a huge blessing to know that we will be alright! We have a job, a way to stop accruing so much debt, and a just plain great opportunity. We are excited about the changes to come, a little nervous, because there is a lot to learn but I know we will get it down and be just fine. Our huge curveball came in the package of a nice new perfect job for our situation, and I am just thanking Heavenly Father for looking out for us, and giving us the answer and solution we needed. It is an unbelievable turn of events, and we couldn't be more grateful.  

8 Months

I have been very lazy at keeping up with the blog :( Hopefully I will get back in the habit of it after the holidays.

I just had to do a post about my Emma Lee, she is such a sweet fun and happy baby. She constantly is amazing me with her spirit and smarts! This morning she was playing in the front room with all the other kids and I was making breakfast (yummy apple cinnamon pancakes), when I checked on her she was sitting surrounded by toys and having a BLAST!

(A picture will go here but I have to go get rid of some of the pictures)

At 8 months she is:

Crawling

Pulling to stand

Walking the furniture 

Eating more and more solids

Loves Graham crackers and yogurt

Balancing on her own for a few seconds

Gets super excited when she sees people she knows (she squeals and bounces - so cute!)

Loves bath time with brother

Hates diaper changes

Is super wiggly and

Perfect!!

We Love Fall

We have a group of friends we play with at the park each afternoon (weather permitting) and with all the leaves falling they have been coming up with new and wonderful ways to entertain themselves and play. It has been so much fun watching them this last week playing in the huge amount of leaves that have fallen. I finally remembered to grab my camera and snap some pictures of the kids playing in the leaves.

Halloween progression pictures - Matthew

2010 he was about 3 months old and the cutest little Lion

2011 he was 15 months and a very sweet scarecrow - enjoying his first sucker

2012 - 27 months- a dinosaur or dragon... First year he said Trick or Treat while Trick or Treating!

Our Thoughtful Boy

I wanted to make sure I record this story because it was a really cute moment.

Chris and I had been cleaning and doing various tasks all day and we were getting worn out. So we sat down to take a break and we were talking about what was left to do and he (Chris) said he was really running out of steam.

Well Matthew chimes in with, "Do you need some steam from my choo choo train or something like that Daddy?"

How cute is that! I love our little boy!

He wanted to sit on the train track for the picture

The long train track Matthew built all by himself!

Thoughts

Emma Lee loves to eat, but really only if she can feed herself. However she doesn't have any teeth so all these finger foods make me nervous! She does pretty well and has had bread, graham crackers, banana slices, mum mums, cheerios, and her daddy gave her a pretzel which she enjoyed very much. If I try to feed her anything pureed or mushy she turns her head away and when I actually get it in her mouth she just spits it out 90% of the time. Anyone ever experience this?

She is starting to walk along furniture, and loves to chase people around the house, she is becoming a very efficient crawler. She LOVES bath time with brother. This morning she was standing looking into the tub and was trying to figure out how to get in by herself. Sleeping is slowly improving.

Matthew is an awesome 2 year old, we love him, he is getting good with letters and counting. He just amazes me everyday!

On another unrelated note, it makes me so sad when blogs I have been reading go private. I have thought about making mine private also, but have not wanted to do it, I just try to keep all my posts safe. I also feel like the wrong person could find it even if there was a password... thoughts?

Anyways we are gearing up for Halloween and are so excited, it seems like we have a ton of events to go to this year. It is going to be a busy couple of weeks!

Lake View Farms

We decided this morning that we should go to a corn maze and pumpkin patch, so we were searching for one near us. Well there were a ton close to us, but one caught our eye, and then Matthews so it was decided. They had a small train that you could ride on, perfect for our train obsessed little boy!

When we first arrived it was pouring rain so we waited about 2 hours for the rain to clear up and headed back to the farm. Here are a few pictures from our fun day on the farm.

Matthew fell down while we were in the muddy corn maze, he was covered in mud and all upset, and Chris was starting to panic because we had nothing to clean him up with. That is when I stepped in and taught Matthew a valuable lesson about what jeans are for and let him wipe his hands off on my jeans. That is what Mom's are for right?

Emma Eats

Emma Lee eats feet! Even doll feet :)

Other than eating feet she LOVES

Mum Mums

and

Tolerates

Peas and Bananas

and

Doesn't like

Squash

Dare Devil

My baby girl is so brave!

She is already crawling and pulling to stand, I thought she would just be content with that much for now. I don't know why I thought that but I did. Well I was wrong.

Today she has started standing up and then letting go and trying to balance! She is not even a week past six months, I can tell she is going to be walking long before I am ready. So I guess that means I better get ready huh?

Our Musician

I wish that I had my camera at church on Sunday because this moment was just so precious. We were staying late after church because Chris had a PPI and I was getting set apart for my calling, anyways Matthew, Emma and I were waiting for Chris to be done.

The choir practices in the chapel after church and Matthew realized that they were in there SINGING! Oh my he was so excited, "Sing, Sing, Song!" 

Not wanting to restrict him from hearing the great choir we have I told him he could sit on the back pew so I could still see him, and he could still watch and listen. Well I was distracted for a couple of minutes and I look over to him and he is sitting on the back pew still, with a Hymn book open, and his hand up leading the music. He was keeping a perfect beat, so calm, and just grinning. It was precious, and made my day to see him enjoy the music so much.

On other music news,

He is starting to ask for children's Hymns by name, and is using words trying to sing along with us each night before bed.

He loves to walk around the house playing his guitar and singing songs.

Anything can be a microphone, even my elbow (he really enjoys singing into elbows... he has got a funny little sense of humor)

Yup, he is driven by music he loves it, and we are doing our best to encourage and develop his love of music.

Matthew 27 Months

Emma Lee is 6 Months!!

It is hard to believe it has already been six months since we welcomed Emma into our life and into our home. She quickly showed us her wonderful, sweet, adventurous personality. We knew from the very beginning that we never wanted to live without her again!

Born on April 12, 2012 at 10:30pm

About 1 week old

3 months

5 months

6 months

At 6 months Emma Lee is already doing these things:

Crawling

Pulling to stand

Trying to eat crayons

Talking to us and making lots of noises

Loves crinkling toys

Hits objects together

Almost clapping
Drinks from sippy cups
Can use a straw
Scrunches her nose so cute when she is angry
Wears 6-9 month clothes - almost into 9-12 month
LOVES Matthew! 

Is just the sweetest little girl ever!

We love her and are so glad that she is a part of our family!!

Happy Half Birthday Baby Girl!!

Just want to say

I LOVE MY KIDS!

Yup I love them a ton, I have been having so many moments lately where I will just sit and watch them, all the while amazed that they are mine. They are such fun, good hearted kids.

I feel so lucky and blessed to be their Mommy

the only thing that would make it better would be a little more sleep at night :)

Hmmm...

I need to earn $65.00, I'm trying to figure out what I can sell to make that much?

I want to buy a membership to the children's museum

Because the weather is going to change soon and the Zoo will be COLD!

I love the Zoo, but it is just not as much fun when it is cold and wet.

Plus the Children's Museum is TONS of FUN!

A Sunday Hike

Seriously Frustrating!

So I just need to vent about this so bear with me, and if you don't want to read it feel free to skip this post all together.

****Start of Rant****

We unfortunately have to put the kids on state insurance because of money flow issues, plus being self employed doesn't provide insurance easily. So I have been trying to get these kids on Oregon insurance for months now. I finally get all the information and everything arranged for insurance and begin to call the providers they have listed in the book they send out, as soon as providers are hearing the insurance I have they immediately say they are not accepting patients with that insurance. SO FRUSTRATING! My kids are over 2 months late for their well child visits, which means Emma is way behind on her immunization schedule, and I can't find a doctor! So one office finally tells me that I need to call and switch to this other insurance provider because no one in the area likes dealing with my current insurance provider so they are all stopping accepting patients from them. I take her advice and call to try and switch, they were able to switch me over but it will not be active until November!

So now I have to figure out if I should wait one more month and take them into Portland for a visit, or if I should just wait another month and take them to the doctor we will hopefully be staying with while we are in the area. I HATE doctor hopping, I want my kids to know where they went, I don't want 10 different offices with records on them, if I ever need to refer back to an office we went I would like to know which one it is. I know in Pullman they went to Pullman Family Medicine, simple easy. Arrrrrghhh!!!!!

****End Rant*****

Thanks for reading :)

A Summer Flashback

 

Here are some pictures from our summer, I don't think I have posted any of these yet, if I have well I guess that means I really like them :) The above picture was taken at the Portland Zoo, I love that picture of my two boys!

In these ones we were a little whited out but it is my kiddos and I in front of the gift shop at the Zoo. It is a neat bear so we thought we would get a picture. Maybe we will have to do one each summer, I think it would be a neat way to measure all their growth and changes!

We went CAMPING! Matthew loved it this year, Emma was not quite as excited but she still did very well, I think she will like it next year when she is walking :) This picture was taken our first night and we were staying at the Beverly Beach campground on the Oregon coast.

 

After a couple of days making our way through Oregon and camping we made it to Grandpa Appel's house. We stayed there for a night and Matthew go to play on Grandpa's motorcycle!

 

I didn't get many pictures but after leaving Grandpa Appel's house we headed out camping again. We went to Lake Tahoe with all of Chris's siblings and his Mom. After the camping trip at Tahoe we went and stayed at Grandma Appel's. Matthew loved playing with her dogs! He was not so sure about the horses during this visit, maybe next time he will feel better about them. One of the days we were at Grandma's we took a trip to Viginina City to ride the train. Matthew is obsessed about trains and we have been trying to take advantage of any opportunity to ride a train because he LOVES it so much!

 

That is a little about our big California trip 2012. There is so much more that we did and so many more pictures, but these are just a few of the highlights!